18 December 2023

Tish and documentary photography

I have watched Tish, a documentary on the documentary photographer Tish Murtha. 

I have heard of the movie by chance, from someone pointing out I look like her; the reason I actually went for, is because she was a woman, documenting working class and misery, in England, and so faithful to her ideals that couldn't make a living out of photography (a hero!). 

Tish couldn't "sell herself and her values" to anything. She wanted to tell the unheard stories, the one that often "don't fit the print", in other words that are "not interesting for the market" or counterproductive for the politicians in power. She was in mission through all her life.

They way she does it is for example by capturing childhood within a disadvantaged England, the beauty among the ruins. She didn't brutalise the subject, quite the opposite. Anyone can empathize with that humanity, and feel called to care for it. Her "way" of photographing says so much of her. 




While I watch the movie, I listen to the words she wrote in her diaries and I resonate so much with... I remind myself that I should make something good out of witnessing her (apparent) "unsucces" and her beautiful images (how comes that H. Cartier Bresson who was all esthetics, but without "mission", is so known, and she's not? Gender and social class inequality, have a play in this?)

Tish is a mirror, a reminder to me. Many questions she had, I have, are still unanswered.

Some questions serve as a guidance: What's mine to do? In a little step?

Some others are generic. Is there a way to really bridge the gap, between a genuine (humanitarian) documentary photography, and the political, economical world of media?

If no doubts the good fights are worth the effort of fighting them... How can the "good fights" be effective in a system that decides against their visibility? Or  they're given visibility only if they carry the same type of violent, patriarchal, polarised, sensationalised way or words that are the standard nowadays? Or they carry that "visual flatness" of some type of documentary photography, aseptic, deprived of any emotion, and often even of humans (equally "violent" in a different way: being a series of still life or landscapes, clean and empty like photos of commercial and residential property)?

What can one, as a media-producer, achieve by exposing the falsity (and violence) of a world that treats us as consumer, rather than as a human? What would be the right "container" for this awareness, so to grow and stay with the readers?

I feel I have been stuck (and felt alone on this) for about 10yrs in this dilemma in the photography arena. How to be the photographer I want to be, when photography is mostly used against my values? With an unethical code that I don't approve? With an esthetic that either silence the human feelings, or make them too loud, sensationalistic and grotesque? How one can be sensible with a camera?

So far, I couldn't find tools or long lasting strategies to find my voice, at the point that the gift of my love for photography has become poisoned in its own environment. For living I have been rather happier to use my photography for a good purpose, (digitising for historical research purposes) but this lead me away from documenting social topics. 

I have seen that building up "a name" by selling what's sensationalised, or even unimportant, or a very polarised version of a presumpted truth, was not what could make me happy or true to myself. Recognition is a fuel only when we can fully believe in its value. And a mask, even the mask of a winner, has never made anyone truly happy.

During this time of hibernation, discovering Non Violent Communication by M. Rosenberg has helped me not only to find the words for my inner world but also the type of communication, the key, I would like to see in the media-world. Right now, hateful speech is the standard in TV or social media. Everything seems to ruin so far that cannot take the time to listen or read a long article.

Non violent communication invited starting from pure observations, to speak in terms of common needs that connect all of us, recalls the empathy we have as humans, inviting us to fully exist without submission or rebellion. Framing with a lens is for me a way of allowing people to tell the stories from their perspective, making them part of the process on how to tell the truth or even rediscover it.

Miki Kashtan has given me again faith that we do matter, all of us, our vision (not intended as opinion, but as the world we want to live in) matters, and we're not alone. She's lighten up a way out of patriarchy rebuilding a sense of togetherness.

So, moved and revitalised in my "photographic core", today I go back to Social Documentary Photography, and Zeke magazine which collects documentary reportages on many unheard stories. I hear that Glenn Ruga, the director (one of the few personalities I have met, in the photography field, most tuned with my own sense of photography) has organised zoom talks, like this:

...which I find very refreshing (and true to my ears).

Responding to the call of our times, in photography, implies many things. One of them is "never alone again"; because now a connection between people that think as you, Tish, is possible. 

Tish died of aneurysm, aged 57, while was searching (without success) a job in a kitchen, after years of living in poverty without even switching on the heating.

Although Tish has passed away, her story and photography is incredibly alive, and needed. It nourishes that place within me, that wants to know an alternative is possible.

In my vision, no other mission-driven photographer like you, should be left poor and alone and unheard. Instead they should be paid for telling us about the world we live in, paid for not being indifferent (in the Gramsci's way), or at least their needs be met outside the market economy. What are the obstacles and barriers to remove, for this to happen, it's ours to discover and do..



15 December 2023

Act

 "Act as the future of humanity depends on you.

Use your energy, knowing that you matter. Don't waste it."


Miki Kashtan

8/12/2023


24 November 2023

21 November 2023

Robert De Ropp

 





Book:

https://www.gatewaysbooksandtapes.com/books/bk021.html


There's a famous teaching story called "The Elephant in the Dark".

Each of the sages who examined the elephant in the dark formed a different idea of what the beast was like. The one who grabbed its tail said it resembled a rope. The one who took hold of its leg thought it resembled a pillar and so on. So each sage published his own version of the elephant. There was the "tail version", the "leg version", the "trunk version". The real form of the elephant eluded them all because, to see the elephant as a whole, one had to turn on the light. This was exactly what the examining sages could not do.



3 November 2023

27 October 2023

Meaningful life

Another of those precious little books, which takes a


relevant influence in the library of my heart& mind memory is:

Man's Search for Meaning, by Victor Frankl

My heart exults when I hear Miki Kashtan mentioning it, in RTTC class of 20th October 2023:

"When I was 17 and in U.S. I had the audacity to write a letter to Victor Frankl. (...) I don't remember what I wrote back then, as my letter is gone. But I have recently found again his reply. He said:

"You can find a sense of meaning in your life in the last few minutes, the last few breaths before you die."

So, (Miki speaking to a participant) the fact that for the last 43 years you have got a sense of what your meaning is, and you didn't know what to do with that... It doesn't mean anything. It's just something to mourn. Because the rest of your life starts now, however long or short it is.

I am not trying to belittle your agony. I am just saying:

The past is not a determinant of the future.

I really admire you. 

The level of determination you have to go for healing, I don't see it very often, certainly not from people who have reached your age - I don't know exactly how old you are. People give up and settle. You just won't do that, not for as long as you can speak and breath.

That's an inspiration."


16 September 2023

Beyond Reason

 Miki's dissertation: here




Her articles:

https://thefearlessheart.org/resources/mikis-articles/

I was given permission from Miki to share this video clip. It is part of the  course "Responding to the call of our times"(2023) hosted by the NVC Academy.

6 September 2023

Hymn to humanity

Italiano, sotto.

My friend just told me the story of this song, sung by an old homeless in London:

"Jesus' blood never failed me yet

Never failed me yet

Jesus' blood never failed me yet

That's one thing I know

For he loves me so"


Gavin Bryars - Jesus' Blood Never Failed Me Yet

Bryars (the composer) on this piece:

"In 1971, when I lived in London, I was working with a friend, Alan Power, on a film about people living rough in the area around Elephant and Castle and Waterloo Station. In the course of being filmed, some people broke into drunken song – sometimes bits of opera, sometimes sentimental ballads – and one, who in fact did not drink, sang a religious song "Jesus' Blood Never Failed Me Yet". 

This was not ultimately used in the film and I was given all the unused sections of tape, including this one. When I played it at home, I found that his singing was in tune with my piano, and I improvised a simple accompaniment. I noticed, too, that the first section of the song – 13 bars in length – formed an effective loop which repeated in a slightly unpredictable way (in the notes for the 1993 recording on Point, Bryars wrote that while the singer's pitch was quite accurate, his sense of tempo was irregular). 

I took the tape loop to Leicester, where I was working in the Fine Art Department, and copied the loop onto a continuous reel of tape, thinking about perhaps adding an orchestrated accompaniment to this. The door of the recording room opened on to one of the large painting studios and I left the tape copying, with the door open, while I went to have a cup of coffee. When I came back I found the normally lively room unnaturally subdued. 

People were moving about much more slowly than usual and a few were sitting alone, quietly weeping. I was puzzled until I realised that the tape was still playing and that they had been overcome by the old man's singing. 

This convinced me of the emotional power of the music and of the possibilities offered by adding a simple, though gradually evolving, orchestral accompaniment that respected the homeless man's nobility and simple faith. Although he died before he could hear what I had done with his singing, the piece remains as an eloquent, but understated testimony to his spirit and optimism."


Articles:

https://www.theguardian.com/music/2022/mar/08/i-still-get-a-tingle-gavin-bryars-on-why-his-most-famous-work-has-never-failed-him-yet

https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/m001pzsw


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Il mio amico oggi mi racconta la storia di questa canzone, cantata da un vecchio senzatetto a Londra:

Il sangue di Gesù non mi ha ancora mai deluso

 Non mi ha mai deluso ancora

 Il sangue di Gesù non mi ha ancora mai deluso

 Questa è una cosa che so

 Perché mi ama così tanto

"Nel 1971, quando vivevo a Londra, stavo lavorando con un amico, Alan Power, a un film sulla gente che viveva in modo rude nella zona intorno a Elephant and Castle e alla stazione di Waterloo. Durante le riprese, alcune persone scoppiarono in stato di ebbrezza canzone - a volte frammenti di opera, a volte ballate sentimentali - e uno, che in realtà non beveva, cantava una canzone religiosa "Il sangue di Gesù non mi ha mai deluso".


 Alla fine questo non è stato utilizzato nel film e mi sono state fornite tutte le sezioni di nastro inutilizzate, inclusa questa. Quando l'ho suonato a casa, ho scoperto che il suo canto era intonato con il mio pianoforte e ho improvvisato un semplice accompagnamento. Ho notato, inoltre, che la prima sezione della canzone - 13 battute di lunghezza - formava un efficace loop che si ripeteva in modo leggermente imprevedibile (nelle note per la registrazione del 1993 su Point, Bryars scrisse che mentre l'intonazione del cantante era abbastanza accurata , il suo senso del tempo era irregolare).

 Ho portato il loop del nastro a Leicester, dove lavoravo al Dipartimento di Belle Arti, e l'ho copiato su una bobina continua di nastro, pensando forse di aggiungere a questo un accompagnamento orchestrato. La porta della sala di registrazione si apriva su uno dei grandi studi di pittura e ho lasciato la copia del nastro, con la porta aperta, mentre andavo a prendere una tazza di caffè. Quando tornai trovai la stanza normalmente vivace e innaturalmente attenuata.

 La gente si muoveva molto più lentamente del solito e alcuni sedevano da soli, piangendo in silenzio. Rimasi perplesso finché non mi resi conto che il nastro stava ancora suonando e che erano stati sopraffatti dal canto del vecchio.

 Questo mi ha convinto della forza emotiva della musica e delle possibilità offerte dall'aggiunta di un accompagnamento orchestrale semplice, anche se in graduale evoluzione, che rispettasse la nobiltà e la fede semplice del senzatetto. Sebbene sia morto prima di poter sentire ciò che avevo fatto con il suo canto, il pezzo rimane una testimonianza eloquente ma discreta del suo spirito e del suo ottimismo."


5 September 2023

All' anima mia amica

Ritrovo oggi un mio scritto del 2011. Dodici anni fa... Ritrovarla adesso è come trovare una "lettera al futuro". Adesso si, so parlare così all'anima mia, e alle anime amiche.

La riporto qui sotto. Era il 19 settembre 2011.

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Mia anima amica,

con te voglio parlare. Non sempre potrò esserti accanto nella vita di tutti i giorni, ma affinché tu possa ricordare che questo nostro legame è qualcosa di più di un appuntamento per uscire qualche sera, qualcosa in più di un film guardato sul divano, o una telefonata di confidenza, oggi io ti scrivo.

Per prima cosa abbi cura di te. A volte bisognerà far da soli: accettalo fin da ora, e se qualcuno ti nega una mano, perdonalo. Non prendertela: è chiaro che non può risollevarti. Solo col tempo si impara cosa sia davvero importante. Non ti affliggere dunque per l'inesperienza degli altri. Pazienta prima di chiamare qualcuno cattivo, perchè giudichi un infelice, un inesperto.

Quanto a te, conserva con cura la parte più vera che di te ho conosciuto: quella che è pronta ad aiutare gli altri, anche se il mondo attorno s'è fatto egoista. Non ti piegare alle astuzie, alle furbizie di chi vuole vincere a ogni costo. Sarai vulnerabile a volte, ma non aver paura di perdere e non ti accadrà mai. Ridi e piangi con la giusta dose di vita, e ascolta mentre ciò ti accade, come le emozioni scivolino via col tempo, e una parte di te rimanga sempre intatta.

Non aver paura, niente ti può uccidere e portare via.

Sei eternità che vive di passaggio. Quando qualcosa ti fa male voglio che tu ti chieda "Cosa posso imparare?"

Non aver paura a chiedere all'invisibile, perchè non visto, vede...e la tua voglia di crescere sarà premiata, con una forza interiore e una consolazione che per ora puoi solo immaginare.

Accendi una candela ogni tanto, per ricordarti come lo Spirito tende, come la fiamma, sempre verso l'alto. Questa è la tua forza, la tua luce.

Molte cose voglio dirti, e quando penserai a queste cose, noi saremo insieme, come con tutte quelle anime che con la luce, per la luce, hanno combattuto. Sì, è una battaglia, anima mia, e a volte qualcosa ti ferisce, lo so bene. Accogli la spada. Amala, ma non cedere facilmente il fianco per ferirti: rischialo per amore, e null'altro.

Ti sembrerà di morire e risorgere mille volte.

Quando arriverà la stanchezza, non ti lamentare. Nell'umiltà chiedi aiuto, e già l'avrai ottenuto.

Parla al presente, e lascia andare il passato, non affidarti al futuro. Fà oggi cosa il tuo scopo ti comanda, e qualche altra faccenda, certo, per mantenerti in vita.

Amati, ti prego. Io sarò lontano e non potrò fartelo sentire.

Ma tu amati nel profondo, con immensa gioia, Abbi la curiosità ancora e ancora di conoscerti, come se fossi un pianeta misterioso; lascia da parte la pretesa di definirti una volta per tutte...devi ancora in gran parte scoprirti.

Anima amica, impara a discernere senza fare troppe divisioni. Ricordati che per quanto possono essere tante le fiaccole, e diverse, hanno in sè tutte lo stesso Fuoco.

Dando amore non perderai mai nulla, non temere. Non si spegnerà la tua candela, se con essa ne accenderai un'altra. Aiuta chi ha perso il gusto della vita.

Riparati dal vento se necessario, ma non chiuderti troppo affinché sotto una campana di vetro non ti manchi l'ossigeno.

Voglio che tu sappia che la Notte è grande, ma tu sei la stella per cui è lecito commuoversi.

Abbi cara la tua vita, e vivi di gioia.

Così sarai un giorno splendente, discendenza divina.

Con amore,

la tua anima amica.

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Monday 19 September 2011


 To my soul friend


 My soul friend,

 I want to talk to you. I won't always be able to be next to you in everyday life, I write so that you can remember that this bond of ours is something more than a date to go out for a few evenings, something more than a film watched on the sofa, or a confidential phone call. That's why today I write to you.

 First, take care of yourself. Sometimes you have to do it alone: accept this now, and if someone refuses to help you, forgive them. Don't blame yourself: it's clear that they really can't support you. Only over time one learns what is really important. So don't worry about the inexperience of others. Be patient before calling someone evil, because you judge someone who is unhappy, and inexperienced.

 As for you, carefully preserve the truest part of yourself that I have known: the one that is ready to help others, even if the world around you has become selfish. Don't give in to the cunning of those who want to win at all costs. You will be vulnerable at times, but don't be afraid of losing, and it will never happen to you. Laugh and cry with just the right amount of aliveness, and pay attention as it happens to you, how the emotions slip away over time, while a part of you always remains intact.

 Don't be afraid, nothing can kill you or take you away.

 You are an eternity living in a passing time frame. When something hurts you I want you to ask yourself "What can I learn here?"

 Don't be afraid to ask the invisible, because unseen, it sees... and your desire to grow will be rewarded, with an inner strength and consolation that for now you can only imagine.

 Light a candle every now and then, to remind yourself how the Spirit tends, like the flame, always upwards. This is your strength, your light.

 I want to tell you many things, and when you think about these things, we will be together, as with all those souls who fought with the light, for the light. Yes, it's a battle, my soul, and sometimes something hurts you, I know that. Welcome the sword. Love the sword, but don't give your side so easily to hurt yourself: risk it for love, and for nothing else.

 You will feel like you die and are resurrected a thousand times.

 When tiredness comes, don't complain. In humility ask for help, and you will already have obtained it.

 Speak to the present, and let go of the past, don't rely on the future. Do today what your purpose commands you to do, and some other chores, of course, to carry on with daily life.

Love yourself, I beg you. I will be far away and I won't be able to make you hear it.

 But you love yourself deeply, with immense joy. Have the curiosity again and again to know yourself, as if you were a mysterious planet to discover; leave aside the pretense of defining yourself once and for all... you still have to largely discover yourself!

 Friendly soul, learn to discern without making too many divisions. Remember that although the torches may be many and different, they all have the same Fire within them.

 By giving love you will never lose anything, don't be afraid. Your candle will not go out if you light another with it. Help those who have lost the taste for life.

 Shelter your flame from the wind if necessary, but don't close yourself too much, so that you won't lack oxygen under a glass dome.

 I want you to know that the Night is dark and great, but you are the star for which it is legitimate to be moved to tears.

 Cherish your life, and live joyfully.

 Thus you will be a shining day, as divine offspring.

 With love,

 your soul-friend.

2 September 2023

No ordinary moments


"Athletes practice their athletics; musicians practice their music; artists practice their art. The peaceful warrior practices everything. That is a secret of the Way, and it makes all the difference."

- No ordinary moments, Dan Millan





30 August 2023

Sleeping under a Blue Moon


The Blue Moon of August 2023 - near Saturn
 

Sleeping at last - Saturn 





15 August 2023

On Planting trees

There's a way to be in service, that is almost hidden. This book by Jean Giono reminds me of it. It's the endurance of pursuing a vision, without letting anything else interfere. 

It's about dedition, discipline, and the capacity to hold a task for a whole life, even on our own, without asking for recognition. Giving out of pure generosity....letting the flowers of our soul to blossom, so that they can become a perfumed gift for others.

This endurance comes from the understanding of what is vital, what can contribute to life, and in keeping doing so, selflessly.

We read the book and a dream awakens inside us. Where to find land? 
Is planting physical trees the only way?
Obviously not. I think to my teachers, Miki and Arnina Kashtan. Aren't they planting seeds too? In the hearts of many, in the land of humanity? Trees that will bring back the flow, the liberation....

Aren't we humans, in our friendships, sowing seeds in each other? So we will always carry each other with us?

I read once again this story, on how this man has found a method for his purpose, and happiness in his own gift.


"A man's kind deeds are used by the Lord as seeds for the planting of trees in the Garden of Eden. Each man brings about his own trees; each man creates his own Garden of Eden." (A. Heschel, Death as Homecoming)

 And a river runs through it, and "everything will live where the river goes...and on the banks, on both sides of the river, there will grow all kinds of trees...their leaves will not wither, nor their fruit fail...their fruit will be for food, and their leaves for healing." (Ezek 47; Cf. Rev 22). 

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P.s. As a photographer, I cannot avoid to remind also the story of the well known photographer Sebastiao Salgado, who planted a forest with his wife in Brazil. A fascinating true story:

https://www.boredpanda.com/brazilian-couple-recreated-forest-sebastiao-leila-salgado-reforestation/


P.p.s: I have just discovered other similar stories:





12 August 2023

Transparent Communication

 


13:52

Sense-making is not talking about, sense making is talking from.


10 August 2023

Change in the Face of Opposition

In Miki's words:

https://thefearlessheart.org/wp-content/uploads/2019/01/MK_201701_KGO_Interview.mp3


(From link

"On the first day of Donald Trump’s presidency, we shared a link to an 8-minute interview, “How You Can Truthfully Impact CHANGE, Even Through Opposition!,” that Miki did on KGO Radio on Jan 16, Martin Luther King Day.")


24 July 2023

Prophet. Now/Here.

Video: A prophet is merged with the source - Thomas Hübl

"Prophet means a fusion of a human being with the
divine. That's a prophet: a fusion; so that the download is kind of coherent or constant...

...which means that (I know) the future not because I cannot be here (like dissociated) but (I can see) the future because I'm so much here, that the future has an open channel to inform, to spread through this moment and inform the current field.

A prophecy is kind of an impression of the future, that is so strong that it stays in a certain time. So when Jesus lived there was an imprint in the Consciousness that is so strong that it stays coherent even throughout a thousand years or two thousand years or six thousand years.

it's an imprint that the Mount Sinai when the voice of God in the Bible spoke to the Israelites of Mount Sinai this is now.

But we are not now: that's why the entire story of humanity is (about) finding back to the voice of God. But the voice of God speaks now! the Mount Sinai is now..but the dispersion of the world is like as if you're going to the Future!

...you're not going to the Future. 
It's anyway here.
But if we are not here, it looks like we are constantly going somewhere or we want to go somewhere where the enlightenment's happening. 
So the prophecy is like an imprint of the few, like a chip that has been downloaded through somebody  that was called (he mentions Lao Tse, and other names of prophets...) and said something that reality is catching up with.
And when the vibration meets the vibration of that future, people say "ah it was true!"

You know it's an imprint in the Consciousness but it's vibrating so high that most of the people don't understand what does it mean... you know it's like it doesn't make sense. But when the vibration of humanity catches up with the prophecy it's a "wooh, it was true!"

And of course there are all kinds of false prophecies also: these were not prophets, these were people that
channeled something whatever that was...and that's different. 
A prophecy is a direct Channel; it's not like channeling something. It's a direct download from the source.

That's why I said a prophet is not like somebody who channels entities (and sometimes there's also relative truth: some have 40% true, some 70% as more clean is the channel, the clearer is the information that comes through).  But the prophet is something else: prophet is merged with the source, and that's why the download is like crystal clear.

The great prophets that spoke to a certain vibration of certain ages, they are energetic imprints.
It's like sometimes when you put the pattern of something on water and it's swimming on water it's like a potential, but it's a form on the water. 
Sometimes when the water has many waves then it disperses it a bit, but let's say, it's a coherent form, that makes it throughout a long period of time: people remember the prophecy.

But why do we remember certain prophecies because we forget so many other things?
Because it has a strong coherence, because the higher is the light the clearer is the effect that it creates.
And so that's very powerful, but that's not an avoidance future, that's not the future to avoid.

Now l, that's actually the future that enriches now: it's an enrichment, it's more information streaming into this reality. It makes this reality bigger and I think that's very powerful.
As I said not everything that is handled in the market is real prophecies, but some of them are, and I think some of them proved to be true over time."





19 July 2023

Michel, portrait.

 

Michel Viotti. 6th Nov 2022, Chez Paul cafe, near Tate, London.

La rencontre, dix ans après les Rencontres d'Arles.


Shot with Lomo camera, Holga + Fuji positive developed in cross processing + 2 stop over develop 

2 July 2023

Time.Is.Still.

Time is still.

Within its eternity, creation and movement is constantly happening in a space. The space is the host, the fact is the guest, time is the possibility and the witness.

Everything happens, in every given moment.

Time is shared. Space is not.

While we occupy only one space at time with our own body, we live every moment simultaneously with everyone else. When something is over, time isn't.

I suddenly realize that is only an illusion that makes us feel time is passing by, that there is a past and a future. Time is never changing, we are.

With our mind we cannot grasp the present neither, as the only real presence is the eternity of time itself. This insight suddenly reconciles everything which has been pointed to by various spiritual paths, when they speak about observation and "staying in the present". I think what they meant to say is "stay with the neutral point of time", where YOU don't matter as much as the picture in the back. Access that stillness.


What they didn't mean is "stay with the internal speech of your mind right now" which is useful but only the entryway: a good exercise to recognise we have an automatic, untamed mind (psychological mind, Krishnamurti would call it) until we step out of it and of our identification with it.

Time is the unchangeable background, the scenery through which space itself moves, together with our bodies and stories and things.

Isn't time like the "gold background" R.M.Rilke* pointed to, when considering individuals only apparently separated (in order to realize their "destiny")?

*Notes on the melody of things

I come to this realization while reading this passage from "The Sabbath" book ...these words made it so easy to understand and remember (especially to remember about our illusions!)


From the book The Sabbath by A.J. Heschel



I go further. If we can be alone in space...We cannot be ever alone in time.

If I am crying, I am sharing a cry with everyone in the wolrd crying at this moment. If I smile, I am sharing happiness with anyone else happy at this moment. And also. If I cry, I share someone else's happiness, through time.

My story is another character carved out from a background that stays still, and connect all.

In his book Heschel points out to the necessity of making a moment "holy" by relating with God and by abstention, I realize that every real prayer happens not in the realm of facts or space, but in the field of time, where "being", healing, miracles, are always prepared here/now. 

Time. Is. Still.

Secure. The real temple. We can enter, wherever we are.

What a sudden relief.

26 June 2023

Friends

Considering the number of highly intellectual friends that I have had since young age (without them knowing, obviously) in order to fulfill my longing for intellectual, emotional, ethical closeness... What happened to Goethe with his "imaginary friends" (I hope he hates this definition as much as I do: they were not at all "imaginary" people; they were very much real people that had passed away before he could meet them; still, they were able to transmit their legacy through their writings. Imaginary is only the reciprocity of a closeness, which can be testified as only unilateral) makes perfect sense to me, up to a point that I want to write to Goethe.




I want to say to Goethe thanks for understanding Tasso and Antonio, the conflict of two parts of a Self. Thanks for wishing them to become friends and trust each other enough to collaborate and integrate. Thanks for exploring adulthood with a maturity that doesn't need impositions or violence. I want to tell Goethe how crystal clear is to me his way of perceiving the world. That he belongs to the Immortals, as H.Hesse would define them, and I can speak to him at anytime, like he has already spoken to me. We might find out that this type of friendship is special and meaningful. Different, but not less real. I always thought it was a way to grow towards what we are and will be. As we need people to reflect with, people able to see where we cannot yet.



Tamil poet Thiruvalluvar, one of my friends





18 June 2023

The Way of the Peaceful warrior - notes in progress

- so you think I am a fool? - I said, sounding more belligerent than I'd intended 

- we're all fools together, - he replied - it's just that a few people know it; others don't. You seem to be one of the latter types.

"The world's a puzzle; no need to make sense out of it". P.9

The world out there is a school, Dan. Life is the only real teacher. It offers many experiences, and if experiences alone brought wisdom and fulfillment, then elderly people would all be happy, enlightened masters. But the lessons of experience are hidden. I can help you learn from experience to see the world clearly, and clarity is something you desperately need right now. You know this is true, but your mind rebels; you haven't yet turned knowledge into wisdom”

P. 14

- what are you going to do, fill me full of your facts? - I bristled.

- it's not a matter of facts; it's a matter of body wisdom.

- What's "body wisdom"?

- Everything you’ll ever need to know is within you; the secrets of the universe are imprinted on the cells of your body. But you haven't learned how to read the wisdom of the body. So you can only read books and listen to experts and hope they are right. P.15

- You understand many things but have realized practically nothing.

- what is that supposed to mean?

- Realization is three-dimensional: a simultaneous comprehension of head, heart, and instinct. It comes only from direct experience.

- I am still not with you.

- Do you remember when you first learned to drive? Prior to that time, you'd been a passenger; you only understood what it was. But you realized what it was like when you did it for the first time [...] One day you'll say the same thing about life.

p.15

"Use whatever knowledge you have but see it's limitations. Knowledge alone does not suffice; it has no heart. No amount of knowledge will nourish or sustain your spirit; it can never bring you ultimate happiness or peace. Life requires more than knowledge; it requires intense feeling and constant energy. Life demands right action if knowledge is to come alive.” page 19

“The warrior acts… and the fool only reacts.”Page 20

- Your feelings and reactions, Dan, are automatic and predictable; mine are not. I create my life spontaneously; yours is determined by your thoughts, your emotions, your past. P.21

- Socrates, where is all this leading?

- to see where something leads, it's best to wait until you reach the end [...] P.25

When I asked him why he was so interested in the details of my life, he said, "I need to understand your personal illusions to grasp the scope of your illness. We are going to have to clear your mind before the door to the warrior's way can open." P.26-27

The world was peopled with minds, whirling faster than any wind, in search of distraction and escape from the predicament of change, the dilemma of life and death — seeking purpose, security, enjoyment, trying to make sense of the mystery. Everyone everywhere lived a confused, bitter search. Reality never matched their dreams; happiness was just around the corner — a corner they never turned. And the source of it all was the human mind.”

P.42

“‘Mind’ is one of those slippery terms like ‘love’. The proper definition depends on your state of consciousness.”

Page 52

“If you persist, you’ll remain yourself — and I can’t imagine a worse fate.” p.58

Two kinds of crying

 From Miki Kashtan's class:

[ When my nephew was three, sometimes when he was crying, he would ask for a bottle and a book. And my sister wanted to support being with the crying and was concerned about it, you know, the bottle and the book being used to stifle the crying.

 So she asked him about it, and here's what he said three year old, he said, "there are two kinds of crying, one lets the sadness out and one keeps the sadness in. When I have the crying that keeps the sadness in, that's when I want a book and a bottle."

And that was the end of conversation from then on, whenever he asked for it, there was no reason not to give it to him, because it was clear. He understood at the body baseline level, that not all crying is actually a release. Yeah, and definitely, we need to learn to decipher this. I think that this is a bit of an odd spot that I may not be sensible enough, precisely because I learned to squelch my crying. I know that there's crying that loops within negative thinking, but I don't hold it sufficiently in my awareness to talk about it with people when I invite them to cry/express feelings.]


The 3yrs old, Yannai Kashtan, later on:

https://youtu.be/kf92pJvoOac

https://youtu.be/ncGgXXfCIYo

Love anger



Transcript:

What about the love anger? 

One does not think about it when he falls in love. However, it is obvious that he meets a whole series of terrible quarrels. The quarrels have two reasons generally. The first reason is terror. When you are with the person you understand that it is important to you, you are afraid and therefore quarrel. In this way you are a little sheltered. The second reason is a repression: you sexually desire this person, a lot, but it is not possible to express this desire, partly because perhaps you are not able to do it and partly because circumstances prevent it ... then this energy moves and from the energy of desire it becomes energy of aggression ... and these quarrels are unleashed.

 It is interesting, however, in these quarrels, the dynamic. How does love anger work? It works in the form of traps stretched to your loved one. For example:

 I expect the loved one to do something and she doesn't ... damn, what an anger! I expect them to arrive at a certain time, instead they come with a little delay. And I give importance to these details, while with a little of courage, with a bit of objectivity, it is easy to discover that in these details one lives one again past experiences. Somehow, instead of facing the present situation, one remembers past pains and wants to reproduce them ... as if reproducing them, they would do less harm. This we could say is a disease, however, is one of those diseases that do not require medicine, only requires understanding. 

When you notice how it works, you don't get effected anymore, you are healed. However when you are healed, you have little choice: you become a genius, and you must explain to others all those things you now know. 

Many are so afraid of being a genius that they prefer to fight. Well, if you could give it a good push in that other direction from the tormented to the genius ... it would be a result.

11 June 2023

Schopenhauer night

 


"Whoever wants to surpass me will be able to go in breadth but not in depth".

A. Schopenhauer

5 June 2023

Cardamom moments

 



Mi pare che l'ora del gelsomino sia passata da un po'. Ho ancora la dispensa piena di tè al gelsomino, ma qualcosa è cambiato. Spesso invece che sedermi a scrivere qui a tarda notte o in qualche diario, parlo con qualcuno di quello che ho dentro, e parlando, esso cambia, evolve, senza poi raggiungere queste pagine.. oppure se non succede che ne parli con qualcuno, può capitare che voglia condividare qui solo della musica. È come se a un certo punto perdessi le parole, o il mio attaccamento a esse.
A volte la musica è il modo migliore per ascoltare se stessi, senza dire troppe cavolate di cui pentirsi l'indomani. È essenziale come un colore senza linee di contorno.
Stasera familiarizzo con un sapore che è un po' amaro e sincero, fragrante e pungente, infine dolce e rinfrescante. Cardamomo, come il mio cognome, la spezia. Al momento è come se passassi tutti questi umori, con un'attesa sempre più piccola tra un momento all'altro perché nella mia mente mi dico volontariamente i passaggi necessari per trovare la via di uscita al labirinto. È una ricerca a fondo.
Mi chiedo:
Se adesso è amaro, cosa ci trovi di bello? Che è sincero.
Se adesso è pungente, cosa ci puoi trovare di bello? Che è vivo, fragrante.
Se adesso è dolce, che ti avvolge completamente, e diventa quasi "troppo", cosa ci trovi di bello? Che rinfresca, che cura.
Ed è così che immagino il cardamomo, mentre mi fermo a bere la descrizione di un sapore, che è capace di sostenere la mia complessità...inauguro qui i Cardamom Moments... Per scrivere, o per tacere.

Weyes Blood - Maybe Love

Marxism 3.0

A young guy in front of the University stops me while holding a Socialist newspaper issued by the students' Marxist group.

Gives me a flyer: there's a WhatsApp group QR code, to discuss...

I point there and I ask with surprise 

"You have a WhatsApp group?"

"Yes, join the revolution there!"

"I mean, this is not very Marxist, to use a facebook product for discussing" (have you ever read anything by Guy Debord? How hundreds of years ago a marxist has foreseen this moment in which people will be transformed in their own images, into consumable shows, into products? Have you understood what Facebook products are?)

"Oh yeah, but we cannot fight capitalism"

"You mean what Marx meant, that capitalism will reach the point of no return and will crash on its own?"

"Oh no, will never crash. We have to adapt..."

"That's not what Marx says. It doesn't look like a Marxist approach"

"Do you want to buy our newspaper for 1pound and see if you agree with our ideas?"

"(Do I need to pay, in order to find, and eventually agree, with your ideas?!) No thanks, it doesn't seem enough Marxist to me. Have you been to the Marx library?"

"The Marxist (mumbling) ...association....?!??"

"No. Marx Library, in London. You should know it as you claim Marxist ideas"

"No."

"I suggest you to go there. They were serious at that time".


Join the revolution on Facebook, and buy our ideas.


For more oxymoron, my friend Massi: https://fattorezero.blogspot.com/2007/08/sagra-dellossimoro1-rivoluzione.html



9 May 2023

1900

 "You're never really done for, as long as you've got a good story and someone to tell it to".

 - The Legend of 1900

Riguardo con piacere questo  Film, per la prima volta in inglese...e questa volta mi soffermo sul significato dell'amicizia: quando al di là della propria preferenza, si accetta pienamente che l'altro scelga il suo destino più autentico.




18 April 2023

What to Remember When Waking, by David Whyte

 What to Remember When Waking 

by David Whyte  


In that first hardly noticed moment in which you wake,

coming back to this life from the other

more secret, moveable and frighteningly honest world

where everything began,

there is a small opening into the new day

which closes the moment you begin your plans.


What you can plan is too small for you to live.

What you can live wholeheartedly will make plans enough

for the vitality hidden in your sleep.


To be human is to become visible

while carrying what is hidden as a gift to others.

To remember the other world in this world

is to live in your true inheritance.


You are not a troubled guest on this earth,

you are not an accident amidst other accidents

you were invited from another and greater night

than the one from which you have just emerged.


Now, looking through the slanting light of the morning window

toward the mountain presence of everything that can be

what urgency calls you to your one love?

What shape waits in the seed of you

to grow and spread its branches

against a future sky?


Is it waiting in the fertile sea?

In the trees beyond the house?

In the life you can imagine for yourself?

In the open and lovely white page on the writing desk?

Cherry blossom

Gift from the park

Nostalgia 77 - cherry blossom


Lyrics:

"Cherry blossom should be your name

You were gone as soon as you came

When the first wind shook your branch


Cherry blossom

Won't you stay just for another, another day

Or in the morn would you be gone

Away, away, away, away


Perfect ain't perfect anymore

Perfect ain't perfect I heard him say

I'd rather leave than grieve for you

And this picture ain't a picture either anymore

Though I know it was before

Before the grey wind took me up

Away, away, away, away"

16 April 2023

José Gonzales - In our nature

 Album:

"In our nature" by José Gonzalez



Love, love is a verb
Love is a doing word
Fearless on my breath
Gentle impulsion
Shakes me, makes me lighter
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath

Night, night of matter
Black flowers blossom
Fearless on my breath
Black flowers blossom
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my

Water is my eye
Most faithful mirror
Fearless on my breath
Teardrop on the fire
Of a confession
Fearless on my breath
Most faithful mirror
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath

You're stumbling in the dark
You're stumbling in the dark

11 March 2023

Steppenwolf - notes

Quotes from "Steppenwolf", by Herman Hesse 

- Mia la traduzione italiana (sotto)

English edition: Steppenwolf, Penguin Classics 2012

"He rented the room, taking the little bedroom in addition. He asked about heating, water, cleaning and the house regulations; he listened to everything in a friendly and attentive manner; he agreed to everything, immediately offering to pay an advance on the rent too. And yet he appeared to be remote from these proceedings; he himself seemed to find what he was doing comical and not to take it seriously. It was as if renting a room and speaking German to people were strange and novel activities for him, while in actual fact, deep inside, he was occupied with totally different matters. This, roughly, was my impression, and it would have been an unfavourable one, if a whole variety of little things hadn't contrived to make me modify it. It was above all the man's face that I found likeable from the start. I liked it in spite of its alien expression. It may have been a rather peculiar face, and a sad one too, but it was alert, very thoughtful and marked by experience, both intellectual and spiritual. And what, in addition, reconciled me to him even more was the fact that his politeness and friendliness, though they seemed not to come easily to him, were devoid of arrogance. On the contrary: there was an almost touching, imploring quality about them, for which I discovered the explanation only later, but which immediately went some way towards winning me over." p 5

"Nothing that was over and done with was a matter for regret. What I did regret was the here and now, all the countless hours and days lost to me because I just endured them and they brought neither rewards nor profound shocks to my system. Yet, praise be to God, there were also exceptions. There were occasional, rare hours that were different, that did bring shocks and rewards, tearing down walls and taking me--lost soul--back again to the living heart of the world." p.31

"I must have spent ten minutes reading a newspaper, allowing the spirit of some irresponsible individual - one of those who chews up the words of others in his mouth and spits them out again undigested - to enter me through my eyes. I ingested a whole column of the stuff." P.37

(I like that he talks about irresponsibility in relation to the attitude of remaining on the surface, without processing information, without using the courage of one's filter, maturity, understanding. Especially true for a common type of journalism. I feel his regret for having allowed the ingestion, through the eyes, of insignificant things...)

"Solitude is independence. For years I had wished for it, and now it was mine. My solitude was cold, there was no denying that, but it was also serene, wonderfully serene and vast like the cold serene space in which the stars revolve." P.40

"Only humour — the splendid invention of those highly talented but unfortunate individuals who are frustrated in the pursuit of the highest ideals, figures bordering on the tragic — only humour (possibly the most original and brilliant of humankind’s achievements) can accomplish the otherwise impossible feat of uniting all spheres of human life by bathing them in the iridescent light of its prisms. To live in the world as though it were not the world, to respect the law but to remain above it, to have possessions ‘as if not possessing’, to renounce things as though it were no renunciation:— all the things asked of us in such well-loved and frequently expressed words of wisdom can only be put into practice through humour." P.59

"Most human beings spend their lives acting compulsory, day after day, hour after hour. Without really wanting to, they pay visits, hold conversations, work fixed office hours – all of it compulsory, mechanically, against their will. It could all be done just as well by machines, or not done at all. And it is this perpetual mechanical motion that prevents them from criticizing their own lives in the way that I do, from realizing and feeling just how stupid and shallow, how horribly, grotesquely questionable, how hopelessly sad and barren their existence is. And oh, how right they are, these people, a thousand times right to live the way they do, playing their little games and pursuing what seems important to them instead of resisting this depressing machinery and staring despairingly into the void as individuals who have gone off the rails do, like me." P.84

"You take the old Goethe much too seriously, my young friend. You should not take old people who are already dead seriously, it is unfair on them. We Immortals do not like things to be taken seriously, we like to have fun. Seriousness, young man, is a function of time. It arises, I don't mind telling you in confidence, when the value of time is overestimated. I, too, once put too high a value on time. For that reason I wished to be a hundred years old. But you see, there is no time in eternity. Eternity is an instant, just long enough for a prank." P.105


"-No, I'm not religious, I'm sorry to say. But I was once and shall be again. There is no time now to be religious.

- No time. Does it need time to be religious?

- Oh, yes. To be religious you must have time and, even more, independence of time. You can't be religious in earnest and at the same time live in actual things and still take them seriously, time and money and the Odéon Bar and all that." P. 108

"All at once a human being, shattering the clouded glass cloche that covered my corpse-like existence and holding out her hand to me, her beautiful, kind, warm hand! All at once things that mattered to me again, things I could take joy in, worry about, eagerly anticipate! All at once an open door through which life could get in to me. Perhaps I could start to live again, perhaps I could become again a human being. My soul, having almost frozen to death in hibernation, was breathing again, drowsily flapping its small, frail wings." P.110

"It is well known that nobody writes as badly as those seeking to defend ideologies that have outlived their time. None ply their trade with less effort or attention to detail". P.125

"On a few occasions I've expressed the view that all nations and indeed all individual human beings, instead of rocking themselves to sleep by mulling over false political questions as to who was the "guilty party", ought to be taking a searching look at themselves, asking to what extent they themselves, by their mistakes, their failure to act and their habitual bad practices have a share in the responsibility for the war and all the rest of the world's miseries. Only in this way, I argued, could the next war perhaps be avoided. Of course, the reason they can't forgive me for saying this is that they themselves are totally innocent. The Kaiser, the generals, the big industrialists, the politicians, the press - none of them are in the least to blame, none of them is guilty of anything!" P.16

"You had an image of life in your head, a faith, a challenge. You were prepared to do great things, to suffer, to make sacrifices – and then bit by bit you noticed that the world wasn't demanding great deeds, sacrifices and the like from you at all; that life wasn't an epic poem with heroic roles and that kind of thing, but more like the parlour of a conventional household where the inhabitants are perfectly content to eat, drink coffee, knit stockings, play cards and listen to music on the radio. And anyone wanting the other heroic and noble life, and having it in them, anyone venerating great writers and venerating the saints, is a fool and a Don Quixote." P.162

P.161-166 are immensely beautiful: dialogue between Hermione and Harry about "complete human beings" and eternity, the kingdom of authentic life:

(After devaluing fame/posterity and clarifying the concept of kingdom of God, as a kingdom of authentic life): "Mozart's music is a part of it, as are the poems of your great writers. So too are the saints who performed miracles, died as martyrs and set a great example to people. But the image of every authentic act, the strength of every authentic emotion, are just as much a part of eternity, even if nobody knows about them, witnesses them, writes them down and preserves them for posterity. There is no such thing as posterity in eternity, only contemporaneity". P.165

Yearning - foxtrot  p.184


"For it was she, Hermione, who emerged as the final figure in my mythical cast of a thousand. In the endless series of names, hers was the last to appear, and its appearance coincided with my return to consciousness. It also marked the end of my erotic fairy tale, because I had no desire to encounter her here in the half-light of a magic mirror. Only the whole Harry would suffice for her, and I was now oh so determined to reconfigure all my chess pieces solely with her and her fulfillment in mind." P.221

Steppenwolf's dialogue with Mozart. P.225 (endless purgatory. Is there anything personal?)


"Even a moderately talented person matures if he has raced his way through a few centuries." P.227

"
You have heard your sentence. So you see, you’ll have to get used to going on listening to the radio music of life. It will do you good. You are uncommonly lacking in talent, my dear stupid chap, but by now I suppose even you have gradually realized what is being asked of you. You are to learn to laugh, that’s what is being asked of you. You are to understand life’s humour, the gallows humour of this life. But of course you are prepared to do anything on earth other than what is asked of you. You are prepared to stab girls to death; you are prepared to have yourself solemnly executed; you would no doubt also be prepared to spend a hundred years mortifying your flesh and scourging yourself. Or am I wrong?

‘No! With all my heart I’d be prepared to do so,’ I cried in my despair.

Naturally! There isn’t a single stupid and humourless activity, anything pompous, serious and devoid of wit, that doesn’t appeal to you! But, you see, nothing of that sort appeals to me. I don’t give a fig for all your romantic desire to do penance. You must be berserk, wanting to be executed and have your head chopped off! You’d commit another ten murders to achieve this stupid ideal of yours. You want to die, you coward, but not to live. But to go on living, damn it, is precisely what you will have to do." P.236

"I knew that the pieces of life's game were there in my pocket, all hundred thousand of them."
[...] The End. P.239

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Italian:


Affittò la stanza, prendendo anche la cameretta. Ha chiesto del riscaldamento, dell'acqua, della pulizia e del regolamento della casa; ascoltava tutto in modo amichevole e attento; acconsentì a tutto, offrendosi subito di pagare anche un anticipo sull'affitto. Eppure sembrava essere lontano da questi procedimenti; lui stesso sembrava trovare comico quello che stava facendo e non prenderlo sul serio. Era come se affittare una stanza e parlare tedesco con la gente fossero per lui attività strane e nuove, mentre in realtà, dentro di sé, si occupava di tutt'altro. Questa, grosso modo, fu la mia impressione, e sarebbe stata sfavorevole, se tutta una serie di piccolezze non fosse riuscita a farmela modificare. Fu soprattutto il viso dell'uomo che trovai simpatico fin dall'inizio. Mi è piaciuto nonostante la sua espressione aliena. Poteva essere un viso un po' particolare, e anche triste, ma era vigile, molto pensieroso e segnato dall'esperienza, sia intellettuale che spirituale. E ciò che, inoltre, mi riconciliava ancora di più con lui era il fatto che la sua cortesia e cordialità, sebbene sembrassero non essergli facili, erano prive di arroganza. Al contrario: c'era in loro una qualità quasi commovente, implorante, di cui ho scoperto la spiegazione solo più tardi, ma che mi ha subito in qualche modo conquistato."


"Nulla di ciò che era finito e terminato era motivo di rimpianto. Ciò di cui mi sono pentito è stato il qui e ora, tutte le innumerevoli ore e giorni persi perché li ho semplicemente sopportati e non hanno portato né ricompense né profondi shock al mio sistema. Eppure, lode a Dio, c'erano anche delle eccezioni. C'erano occasionali, rare ore che erano diverse, che portavano shock e ricompense, abbattendo muri e riportandomi - anima perduta - di nuovo nel cuore vivo del mondo."


"Devo aver speso dieci minuti leggendo un giornale, permettendo che lo spirito di qualche irresponsabile individuo - uno di quelli che mastica le parole degli altri nella sua bocca e le sputa ancora non digerite - mi entrassero dentro attraverso gli occhi. Ho ingerito un'intera colonna di questa roba."


(Mi piace che lui parli di irresponsabilità in relazione all'attitudine di restare in superficie, senza elaborare le informazioni, senza usare il coraggio del proprio filtro, maturità, comprensione. Particolarmente vero per un tipo molto diffuso di giornalismo. Sento il suo rammarico di aver permesso l' ingestione, attraverso agli occhi, di cose senza peso... )


"La solitudine è indipendenza. Per anni l'avevo desiderata, e ora era mio. La mia solitudine era fredda, non si poteva negarlo, ma era anche serena, meravigliosamente serena e vasta come lo spazio freddo e sereno in cui ruotano le stelle."


"Solo l'umorismo - la splendida invenzione di quegli individui di grande talento ma sfortunati che sono frustrati nel perseguimento dei più alti ideali, figure al limite del tragico - solo l'umorismo (forse il più originale e brillante dei risultati dell'umanità) può compiere l'impresa altrimenti impossibile di unire tutte le sfere della vita umana immergendole nella luce iridescente dei suoi prismi. Vivere nel mondo come se non fosse il mondo, rispettare la legge ma stare al di sopra di essa, possedere "come se non si possedesse", rinunciare alle cose come se non fosse una rinuncia: - tutte le cose che ci vengono chieste da tanto amate e spesso ripetute parole di saggezza possono essere messe in pratica solo attraverso l'umorismo."


"La maggior parte degli esseri umani passa la vita a comportarsi obbligatoriamente, giorno dopo giorno, ora dopo ora. Senza volerlo veramente, fanno visite, intrattengono conversazioni, lavorano in orari fissi d'ufficio – tutto obbligatoriamente, meccanicamente, contro la loro volontà. Tutto potrebbe essere fatto altrettanto bene dalle macchine, o non fatto affatto. Ed è questo perpetuo movimento meccanico che impedisce loro di criticare la propria vita nel modo in cui lo faccio io, di rendersi conto e sentire quanto sia stupida e superficiale, quanto orribilmente, grottescamente discutibile, quanto irrimediabilmente triste e sterile sia la loro esistenza. E oh, quanto hanno ragione, queste persone, mille volte ragione a vivere come vivono, facendo i loro piccoli giochi e perseguendo ciò che sembra importante per loro invece di resistere a questo meccanismo deprimente e fissare disperatamente il vuoto come individui che se ne sono andati fuori dai binari, come me."


"Prendi troppo sul serio il vecchio Goethe, mio ​​giovane amico. Non dovresti prendere sul serio gli anziani che sono già morti. Fai loro un'ingiustizia. A noi Immortali non piace che le cose vengano prese sul serio. Ci piace scherzare. La serietà, giovanotto, è un incidente del tempo. Consiste, non mi dispiace dirtelo in confidenza, nel dare un valore troppo alto al tempo. Anch'io una volta ho dato un valore troppo alto al tempo. Per questo desideravo avere cent'anni. Nell'eternità, tuttavia, non c'è tempo, vedi. L'eternità è un semplice momento, giusto il tempo per uno scherzo."


"- No, non sono religiosa, mi dispiace dirlo. Ma lo ero una volta e lo sarò ancora. Non c'è tempo adesso per essere religiosi.


- Non c'è tempo. Serve tempo per essere religiosi?


 - Oh, sì. Per essere religioso devi avere tempo e, ancor di più, indipendenza dal tempo. Non puoi essere religioso sul serio e allo stesso tempo vivere nelle cose reali e prenderle ancora sul serio, tempo e denaro e l'Odéon Bar e tutto il resto."


"All'improvviso un essere umano, che frantuma la cloche di vetro appannato che copriva la mia esistenza cadaverica e mi tende la sua mano, la sua bella, gentile, calda mano! Tutto in una volta cose che contavano di nuovo per me, cose di cui potevo gioire, preoccuparmi, anticipare con impazienza! All'improvviso una porta aperta attraverso la quale la vita poteva entrare in me. Forse potrei ricominciare a vivere, forse potrei diventare di nuovo un essere umano. La mia anima, quasi congelata a morte nel letargo, respirava di nuovo, sbattendo sonnolenta le sue piccole e fragili ali."


"È risaputo che nessuno scrive così male come chi cerca di difendere ideologie che sono sopravvissute al suo tempo. Nessuno esercita il proprio mestiere con minore fatica o attenzione ai dettagli".


"In alcune occasioni ho espresso l'opinione che tutte le nazioni e in effetti tutti i singoli esseri umani, invece di addormentarsi rimuginando su false domande politiche su chi fosse il "colpevole", dovrebbero dare uno sguardo attento a se stessi, chiedendo fino a che punto essi stessi, con i loro errori, la loro inazione e le loro abituali cattive pratiche hanno una parte nella responsabilità della guerra e di tutte le altre miserie del mondo. Solo in questo modo, ho sostenuto, potrebbe la prossima guerra forse essere evitata. Naturalmente, la ragione per cui non possono perdonarmi se dico questo è che loro stessi sono totalmente innocenti. Il Kaiser, i generali, i grandi industriali, i politici, la stampa - nessuno di loro è minimamente da incolpare, nessuno di loro è colpevole di niente!" 

"Avevi in ​​testa un'immagine della vita, una fede, una sfida. Eri preparato a fare grandi cose, a soffrire, a fare sacrifici – e poi a poco a poco hai notato che il mondo non ti chiedeva affatto grandi azioni, sacrifici e simili; che la vita non era un poema epico con ruoli eroici e quel genere di cose, ma più simile al salotto di una casa convenzionale dove gli abitanti si accontentano perfettamente di mangiare, bere caffè, lavorare a maglia calze, giocare a carte e ascoltare musica alla radio . E chi vuole l'altra vita eroica e nobile, e l'ha in sé, chi venera i grandi scrittori e venera i santi, è uno stolto e un Don Chisciotte."

P.161-166 nell'edizione inglese sono pagine immensamente belle: dialogo tra Hermione e Harry su "esseri umani completi" e l'eternità, il regno della vita autentica:

 (Dopo aver svalutato fama/posterità e aver chiarito il concetto di regno di Dio, come regno di vita autentica): "La musica di Mozart ne fa parte, così come le poesie dei tuoi grandi scrittori. Così anche i santi che hanno compiuto miracoli, morirono da martiri e diedero un grande esempio alle genti.Ma l'immagine di ogni atto autentico, la forza di ogni emozione autentica, fanno altrettanto parte dell'eternità, anche se nessuno le conosce, le testimonia, le annota e le conserva loro per i posteri. Non esiste posterità nell'eternità, solo contemporaneità". P.165

Yearning - foxtrot

"Perché era lei, Hermione, a emergere come figura finale nel mio mitico cast di mille. Nell'infinita serie di nomi, il suo è stato l'ultimo ad apparire, e la sua apparizione ha coinciso con il mio ritorno alla coscienza. Marcava anche la  fine della mia fiaba erotica, perché non avevo nessuna voglia di incontrarla qui nella penombra di uno specchio magico. Le sarebbe bastato solo l'intero Harry, ed ero ormai così determinato a riconfigurare tutti i miei pezzi degli scacchi unicamente con lei e la sua realizzazione in mente." 

"Anche una persona moderatamente dotata matura se si è fatta strada attraverso alcuni secoli."

"Hai sentito la tua sentenza. Quindi vedi, dovrai abituarti ad ascoltare la musica radiofonica della vita. Ti farà bene. Sei insolitamente privo di talento, mio ​​caro stupido, ma ormai suppongo che anche tu ti sia gradualmente reso conto di ciò che ti viene chiesto. Devi imparare a ridere, questo è ciò che ti viene chiesto. Devi capire l'umorismo della vita, l'umorismo da forca di questa vita. Ma ovviamente sei pronto a fare qualsiasi cosa sulla terra diversa da ciò che ti viene chiesto. Sei pronto a pugnalare a morte le ragazze; sei pronto a farti giustiziare solennemente; senza dubbio saresti anche disposto a passare cento anni mortificando la tua carne e flagellando te stesso. O mi sbaglio?

 'NO! Con tutto il cuore sarei pronto a farlo ', ho pianto nella mia disperazione.

 Naturalmente! Non c'è una sola attività stupida e priva di senso dell'umorismo, qualcosa di pomposo, serio e privo di spirito, che non ti piaccia! Ma, vedi, niente del genere mi attira. Non me ne frega niente di tutto il tuo romantico desiderio di fare penitenza. Devi essere furioso, voler essere giustiziato e farti tagliare la testa! Commetteresti altri dieci omicidi per realizzare questo tuo stupido ideale. Vuoi morire, codardo, ma non vivere. Ma continuare a vivere, maledizione, è proprio quello che dovrai fare."


"Sapevo che i pezzi del gioco della vita erano lì nella mia tasca, tutti e centomila"

 [...] Fine.